Mindfulness

I saw my psychologist today and she showed me a technique to use called Mindfulness. Mindfulness is a whole-body-and-mind awareness of the present moment with no judgement. Just be. Focusing on the moment without filtering everything through a subjective opinion.

Hopefully by doing this exercise I can use this in my everyday life, which will help me with just experiencing the present without constantly worrying about the future (or lack thereof). It’s really hard to stop worrying about the future, more specifically what will happen to my family. I worry about that a lot.

This poem a day is really really tough, I’m ready to pull a pin on this I think.

Mindfulness
Just focus on the now
Focus on your senses
Don’t think about anything else
No judgement
Live each moment

Wedding Anniversary

Whatever I do
I think of you
Wherever I go
I remain with you
Your love gives my life a meaning and purpose
And no one could have brought me so much happiness
You are the one true love of my life
I cannot conceive of what life would have been like
without you
For now and forever, I pledge my love for you
And hope that we can look forward to many years together

by Wylie

Wylie wrote this to me many,many moons ago and we incorporated this poem in our wedding ceremony 12 years ago.

Happy Anniversary darling husband
Twenty two years together!!!
We may be older but our love will never age
I love you with all my heart

post-it note

this will be brief
as I have a date
and I can’t be late

I have a problem
what do I pack
when I don’t know where I’m going?

I have nothing to wear!!!
I’m kidding, just joking
I seriously have to fly?
bye

Not sure if this counts as a poem….more like a post it note?

Surprise

I like this new husband
He’s planning a surprise for me
This weekend is our anniversary

He keeps checking the weather
It must be outside
Oh what could it be?

A picnic in the park?
A walk on the beach?
There’s endless possibilities

I’m secretly excited
I like this new husband
Full of surprise and mystery
It’s a new way he’s showing
his love for me

by me

Mirror, mirror

I look in the mirror
I don’t see me anymore
I feel like a stranger
is staring at me
Who’s that person?
that’s not me

I look in the mirror
I don’t like what I see
This is not how I picture myself to be
I’m disfigured
I’m overweight
I look tired
I don’t feel womanly
I don’t feel like me

I look in the mirror
and I see my body battered
Full of battle scars
Everyday I’m reminded of my fight with cancer

by me

I’m not a poet but I’m up for the challenge, April is national poetry writing month 30 poems in 30 days. So I’ll be posting in prose if I can.

Friendship

 

To my beautiful friend Regina,

I’m so grateful you chose me to be your BFF
I could not ask for a better friend
I’m so lucky I found you in my life
To think we’ve been friends since high school
That was such a bad period in my life
Knowing I had your support gave me the courage to leave home
And believe in myself that I was doing the right thing
We’ve been through so much together
Leaving home, uni, boyfriends, breakups, marriage, kids, health issues, family woes, everything in our adult life
And you’ve been there for me through it all
I would be lost without you
My life would not be the same without you
I love you dearly, you’re more than a friend you’re my family
I love your honesty
I love your insight
I love your candour
I love your humour
I love your soft heart
I love our friendship
I love that I have you as my BFF

Happy Birthday Regina
Let’s hope we can celebrate many, many more years together!

Inspirational Injections

I thought some inspirational injections were in order.

The real voyage of discovery
consists not in seeking new landscapes
but in having new eyes

– Marcel Proust

twenty years from now
you will be more disappointed by
the things that you didn’t
do than by the ones you did do.
So throw off the bowlines.
Sail away from the safe harbour.
Catch the trade winds in your sails.
Explore. Dream. Discover

– Mark Twain

Open your heart and love will come in
Open your mind and ideas will flow
Open your eyes and you will be rewarded
Open your soul and it will guide you in the right direction

– by me